Back in May I wrote about the weight loss contract I have with my husband. There must be a couple of people who don't actually read my blog, just check out the title of the posts because I got a bunch of emails about how I shouldn't let my husband control me and blah, blah, blah. The contract came after my doctor recommended I lose 40 pounds to better diagnose an abdominal mass I found. The contract was a way to encourage me to get the weight off.
40 pounds seemed pretty impossible to me, but I really wanted to feel great. After a bunch of searching for a sustainable plan for eating and exercise I decided that we would convert the whole family to a paleo diet and get more active. We made the switch to paleo and the weight started dropping off. I was really enjoying exercise for the first time since high school.
With all of the physical strengthening that was happening I was strengthening myself emotionally too. I took a good look at my life and where I was placing my energy. I thought about where I was putting energy out and getting it back and where it was just being sucked out of me. In my work, home, circle of friends, and family I started putting more energy into the things and people who were reciprocating. When I created a cycle of good energy/love/feelings the other relationships seemed to drop away with ease. I confidently realized that I require good relationships with myself, the people in my life, and what I invest my time in.
So, from June until now I did things I never would have thought I could do; I ran and finished 2 5K races, I revolutionized my entire family's relationship with food, I brought healthy relationships to the forefront of my life, and I worked really hard to reach the first goal of many. I went from a size 20 to a size 8. I've lost 45 pounds since May, and I've lost 65 since my highest weight. I think this is damn good because I've added a fair bit of muscle to my frame, and we all know muscle weighs more than fat. I was even hired as a model for a boudoir photoshoot by a local photographer (more on that in another post). Things are all going in the right direction.
My next goal is to complete a 21 day sugar detox with my friends from my (totally awesome and supportive) facebook group full of moms who are making healthy changes. After that, I'd like to reach a lower weight that I can maintain. It will come because it is supposed to happen this way.
In between now and the next goal there is the little matter of a super deluxe vacation to Walt Disney World with my boys. Cad doesn't know about it. Well, he knows that we are going to Disney World someday, but he thinks we can't go until we're all healthy. He doesn't know much about my weight loss goal. I assure you the video camera will be recording the whole thing when we wake Cad up at 3:30 in the morning to tell him we're going to Disney World! The only drawback to this plan is that I spend almost all of my time with Cad, so it stinks that I can't discuss it with him.
The (paleo) icing on the (paleo) cake is that the thing that started this whole journey, the abdominal mass, has become a total non-issue. It has faded away and my doctor can barely palpate it anymore. By the time I reach my next goal weight it will probably be gone.
I can't thank the supportive and loving people in my life enough for being so wonderful throughout this transition. I never thought I'd be exercising 5 days a week, cooking 21 meals a week, and loving it as much as I do (except for running. I hate running, but I do it anyway.). Thank you.